My niece made my whole year!

My niece is always telling me how much she loves me but 2 days ago when I was leaving her house she said something to me that made my whole year!

She said " But Aunt Nat I feel like death when you leave"
So i said why do you feel like death? and she goes
"because I miss you so much"

She is too funny and I love her soo much!!
We have such a special bond and I love spending time with her.
She says the funniest things.
Like someone said a bad word near her and she shouted
"DUDE your not suppose to say that while a little kid is around"
I seriously wish I had my camera out 24/7 with her. everyone would get a laugh!

Here are some pictures of us.






At friendlys

Happy Halloween!

So Halloween was pretty interesting this year. I am too old to go trick or treating even though I would love too but I usually take my niece trick or treating but her mom took her and they got back to late so I seen her the next day.

I ended up going to fright fest for the FIRST time. I hate when things jump out at me. Taking me into a haunted house is so not a good idea. I will punch things that jump out at me but i went anyways and of course we got lost because we took my friends way so we ended up getting there at night but once i was there I was fine and we all had a blast!


Kenz in her halloween custome 2010.

Here are some pictures from fright fest





All of us

Then the next day I went to visit my niece and we had a blast. Of course she was dancing to Justin Bieber. She also got a new toy from micky d's she was playing with.


Kenz with her new Justin Bieber book

I got really bad news

My cousin is in her middle 30's. She was diagnoised with breast cancer about 6 months ago but was told it was in stage 1. She got her breast removed and was told the cancer was gone. Then recently her back started to hurt and she was told she broke her verterbray. The doctors have told her so many things. Saying she was born with a missing veterbray but she knew she wasn't. Now she found out she has stage 4 cancer and it spread to her back which is why her verterbray is broken. She is in so much pain and I just want her to get better. She is so young. Single with no kids. In 2005 I lost my grandma which is her aunt to breast cancer. My aunt is her mother. Now my aunt might lose her daughter. My cousin is such a strong person. Even though she is going through all this she still smiles and stays positive.Please pray for my cousin Rachel. It would mean soo much to us!!. She still has so much to live for and we have to stay strong for her. We thank you all for your prays and support. They mean alot to us!

I will keep you all updated.

Thanks so much
and hope everyone has a great halloween!

Halloween is coming!

So sorry I haven't blogged in a long time. Alot has gone on. But I am back!

I am so excited for halloween this year. I have a halloween party on friday at a program i go too. I am very excited. We went pumpkin picking a few weeks ago and had a blast! We pet all the animals and picked pumpkins and went on a hay ride. My niece milked a cow but she said it felt wierd and she told me "that place smelled!" she is too funny.I lost my cell phone and looked for an hour but couldn't find it anywhere then when i got home they called and said they found my phone! I was so happy.

But i will be updating more this week.
Here are some pictures and vids from the pumpkin farm!











& here is a video of our fun day at the farm!

Life is so complicated but you gotta love it. NOT!

So I haven't written anything in a few days so I thought I would write something.

My brother is 17 and my mother let him go to sea side which is about 2 hours away from our house and it's board walk/beach and rides pretty much and he went with his friends. Friends that are older then him. I don't know what my mother is thinking.He just got his license last week and she let him drive all the way to sea side and stay there all weekend with friends she never even met! She doesn't think and that's why he is the way he is and it upsets me. He is going to be staying out all night and drinking. He is 17. Not 21. But yet he gets treated like he's 21 and that's why he acts that way. She needs to wake up already. I love my mom but some of the things she does makes no sense!


Today I saw my niece for a little bit. She is so funny. She took my camera and was taken pictures of herself with her doll so when she was done I had about 36 pictures of just her and her doll! Then she wanted me to take pictures of her doll too and I tried to cut the doll out so I had just her and she yelled at me and said "AUNT NAT MY DOLL ISN'T IN THE PICTURE!" she is so bossy and such a princess but I love her to death! She is my life.


I took this of her with her doll before she grabbed the camera and started taken pics of herself and the doll.





She put on her cousins shoes.BIG FOOT!



Well that's all for now
xox

Until I see her again

These past few months I been struggling with money issues,problems with some people and also depression. It's been a hard few months. I find myself thinking about my grandma every day now and what it would be like if my grandma was still here. I have yet to tell you guys about my grandmother. She was an amazing women. Born on Valentines day. She had a heart of gold. Took care of me when I was a new born. Was always there for me and my brothers growing up. We was so close. I Would see her every weekend. Her house was my second home in Brooklyn NY. Where she was born and raised.
She had 2 daughters one is my mother and the other died when she was in her 20's.
My grandma was diagnoised with breast cancer. I didn't think it was as serious.I thought my grandmother is the strongest person in the world. She'll get through this. She been through so much and got through all of that. Her daughter dying,Her husband dying from stomach cancer. She could handle anything that came her way. Or so I thought. What I didn't know was the cancer had spread to her liver and they found it way to late. Even though my grandma was so healthy,Got mamagrams when she was suppose to and was so strong. She wasn't strong enough to beat this illness. The doctors gave her 3 months to live. She ended up living 3 long happy years. My grandma passed away on March 5th 2005 with me,My brothers,My mom,My dad,My aunt(her sister) all by her side. I layed with her for over an hour when she passed. Just crying on her stomach wishing she would come back.But nothing was going to bring her back. My full of life caring grandmother was now a beautiful angel in heaven.


It's been 4 years since she has passed and not a day goes by where I don't still think about her and all the times we spent in the past,Every holiday passes and I wonder. What would we do with my grandma for this holiday. Every weekend passes and I wonder. What would we have done this weekend together if she was still alive and every day passes and I wonder what it would of been like if she was still here with us. I don't know why god took her from me but all I know is she is waiting at the gate for me when he decides to take me under his wing and that's when ill once again have that smile on my face like everytime my mother would tell me we are going to grandma's house. But until then ill cherish all the moments we did get to spend together and take in everything she has told me before she passed and thank god for the times he let me spend with her even though it hurts so bad that I can't spend anymore days with her. Until I see her again ill always remember all the times we spent and everything she taught me and she will always be my hero.

uh oh he's driving!

My 17 year old brother got his license today and while I will tell you I did pray he didn't get it today because he can be really irisponsable and when driving that isn't the best thing to be. I am a little bit scared that he will have road rage or hurt someone or himself. A vehical to me is a weapon and I don't think he's mature enough to drive.I don't even think any 17 year old is mature enough to drive. You mid as well just let them drink too. I think 21 is the perfect age for everything. Your not in your teens and you are responsable enough to handle the stress that comes along with being an adult. But that's not how life is and I am just glad the age isn't 14 like in some other states. That is just crazy!

Here is my brother with his new car and subs that he spend over 800 dollars on. This was a year after he got his license. I am updating this blog post now. it is September 2011.

Nothing is really going on this past week but today I got to see my niece and I love her so much. We have a special bond and when im there I focuss mostly all my time on her. We play games and sing. We have a lot of fun and yes I spoil her. But she deserves it.

So hopefully next time more interesting things will be happening.
Before I end this here's
Some Pictures:

My niece making silly faces.